Friday, October 7, 2011
-Your Loving chickadude
Monday, October 3, 2011
-you're loving master (haha yes I signed off that way)
Thursday, August 18, 2011
now happier news? I think yes. So for those that don't know much about me I am so indecisive and especially with one area of life and that's what i want to do with my life, Daily i find something new i want to do for a career i hate that in life you can really only do one career in depth. but here is probably my top ten career choices probably listed from most ridiculous to more realistic but we'll see it might just be random,
1. Rally car driver (yeah so what if i'm american it could happen)
2. stunt man/stunt driver
3. actor/celebrity goofball
4.president but the weirdest president we've ever had, world peace would be reached
5.bum (don't worry i'll explain more in depth after the list)
6. musician (i will also explain)
7. gay jobs such as interior design, stylist (ditto to previous parentheses)
8. professor/high school teacher
10. doctor/ surgeon (9, 10 are what i seriously plan on but the others sound more fun but yeah those are tied i'm not sure which i'd rather be)
11. photographer ( sorry couldn't cut it down to ten)
Ok so explanations so being a bum while it's more of a lifestyle not a career is at least to me rather glamorous, think about it you go wherever you want whenever the only time you have to stop is to bum some money or just go to home depot and pick up some odd jobs for people that way it's more predictable income and well legal. but yeah it'd be so fun to just travel no responsibility just doing what you want and not having a bunch of "things" to carry around and be attached to. musician well one i love music and two a musician is really a fancy word for bum who travels the world cause well they don't actually do much but they get paid may not be well always but still. ok gay jobs lets put it this way i'm you're gay straight friend, the guy that will go shopping with you tell you what looks good and is stylish and such but will still date you and kiss you, i just enjoy interior design cause well i'm picky about how things especially houses look, now stylist this is actually new, today in fact. but while getting my hair cut i realized how much fun it would be well not to do guys hair that would be boring.... but to do girls hair would be sooo fun, something you should know i love playing with hair so being paid for it would be fun, but more so like making a woman feel gorgeous about herself would just feel so good and doing that everyday? yeah awesome right? just seeing how excited this woman in there got with the person cutting her hair i got all excited and that'd be so fun to take part in but yeah anyways gay moment check! (to maren who i'm sure is going to read this sometime sorry i forgot to tell you about the stylist thing i kinda forgot about it until i started writing this but yeah i'm sure you'll appreciate this haha)
anyways thank you for reading my friends or the lack there of
-sincerely a straight gay man
Monday, August 8, 2011
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
It's amazing to me te healing power a friend can have, just coming to visit you bringing with them a smile that melts your heart, just resting her head on your shoulder, holding your hand with her tiny little hands thT are just te best. I felt so much better after that visit nothing big happened but the greatest things are truly just te little things holding hands, a tight hug and getting a kiss on the cheek :) thank you for all the little things I'm on top of the world!
Thanks for listening my readers or the lack thereof have a great night love you all
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Anyways today, so my fan went to see hp7 while I watched Braxton cause he doesn't sit through movies so well. We began our adventure at the university mall specifically the Disney store where we spent like an hOur haha it was so fun and so cute to see him get so excited about all the fun stuff. The next exciting event would have to be Tucanos. We went there for dads last meal of sorts, it was so delicious but I ate way tOo much I almost lost it in the barhroom. But man that is such a fun experience.
Anyways the rest if the day was pretty stressful just getting all the last minute stuff ready and I must say I am kind of scared but it's gonna be fun and exciting I do love change it's a good thing typically. Anyways thanks for letting me tell you about my day you're al awesome
Sincerely one rather impressed with his iPhone typing skills
Friday, July 15, 2011
LAYER ONE: On the Outside--
Full Name: Braden Matthew Messick
Birthday: Oct. 11
Major: Philosophy maybe, undecided
Current Location: that's classified but i am behind a computer
Eye Color: brown green hazel?
Hair Color: brown
Righty or Lefty: lefty for life babies
Zodiac Sign: a cock for the chinese and then the one i think it means i am a libra at least that's what google says
LAYER TWO: On the Inside--
Your Heritage: german and other white places
Your Fears: elevators
Goal(s): i've scored like 5 yeah i'm basically a super star
Regrets: only one but you have to be special to know it
Change one thing about your life: said regret
Relieve Stress: drive walk music
Hardest thing ever dealt with: a long break up
What upsets you: slurping bleh sooooo nasty
Vent about something: I just gah i hate misquitos they take my blood and make me itchy and just grrrr gah it itches! i fed them is that not enough????! must they make me itch too?!!!
LAYER THREE: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow--
Your thoughts first waking up: midnight showing still so worth it hp7.2 baby
Your most missed memory: how things were like a month and a half ago, or perhaps the beach
LAYER FOUR: You’re picking--
Pepsi or Coke: pepsi between those too
McDonald's or Burger King: mcds, bk makes me sick
Single or Group dates: some of both :)
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate is that a question?
LAYER FIVE: Do You--
Do Drugs: nope not unless directed to take them by a medical pro
Have a crush: very much so but it might be unrealistic of me
Think you've been in love: totally
Want to get married: very much so
Believe in yourself: what am i doing? but usually yes
LAYER SIX: In the Past Month--
Gone to the mall: yes i did yesterday in fact
Eaten Sushi: no it makes me sick
Gone skating: no not in a long time
Dyed your hair: never ever in my life should i?
Done something exciting: psh i do that everyday!
LAYER SEVEN: Have You Ever?--
Changed who you were to fit in: not really if i don't fit in i usually don't want to
Stole a note that you weren't tagged in: hahahahaha um prime example right here
LAYER EIGHT: Getting Old--
Age you're hoping to be married: if i'm not married by 30 i'll be sad i think 23 but we'll see what happens after the mission
Age you're hoping to have children: i'd like to at 25 but it's really up to my dear sweet wife she has to do the hard part
Want to travel to: EVERYWHERE
LAYER NINE: Perfect Mate--
Best Eye Color: i love blue eyes but it doesn't really matter
Best Hair Color: Anything but i'd prefer not blonde
Short or Long Hair: depends on the girl :)
LAYER TEN: What were you doing--
5 MINUTES AGO: writing this i'm getting distracted
1 HOUR AGO: reading someones blog
1 DAY AGO: HARRY POTTER 7!!!!!!!
1 YEAR AGO: something summery :)
LAYER ELEVEN: Finish the Sentence--
I Love: you :)
I Feel: like i should pause and go pee.....
I Hate: being chased by rapid dingos with buttons for eyes (it happens alot)
I Hide: Because of those d@mn dingos!
I Miss: it would embarrass her if i said her name on my blog i think
I Need: a hug cause i want a hug
Well there you have it buddies :) hope you enjoy!
Saturday, July 9, 2011
The past three days have been pretty amazing but i don't know they've left me feelin kinda down for some reason. you ever just wish you could freeze time so you could think everything through before you had to choose something? I especially wish i could right now cause i know i have to choose something but i'm not even sure what it is, well i do i just don't know exactly what it is. Sorry that makes absolutely no sense unless you know me and how i describe things which is probably only like 2 people in the whole world. Gah i hate not knowing everything that's stressing me out but today it's alot of unknowns.
I did go on a run and it really helped me clear my head and think things through it was so helpful and helped mend some stupid stuff, i'm glad that parts behind and i'm looking forward to the new beginnings.
You ever get a text and pray that its from someone specific but it never seems to be the one you need to talk to when you need to? haha then you get some that break your heart that you didn't really expect them too. life should come with a map.... though i probably still wouldn't use it.
Well thanks for listening i know i'll blaze a path that makes sense looking back but sadly you have to blaze it looking forward and well i feel lost and confused in the denseness of life haha oh well you only get one might as well embrace the chaos and confusion and call it yours
-sincerely one going no where in particular
Thursday, June 30, 2011
So i've decided on a project to do, i want to take pictures of someones eye and then a picture of them expressing an emotion/doing something/ whatever they want to express themselves. then put them inside their eye. it's not the most original idea ever but i think it's pretty cool still. so if you would be ok with me doing that to you let me know :) comment on here or contact me by emailing me email@example.com even if you don't know me if you'd be ok with it i'd love to thank you my loyal readers/future models or the lack thereof
-sincerely "a sad strange little man"
p.s. not that i'm an angery person or a murder i just thought that might look cool in an eye and it allowed me to really use the name "trapped inside" for this project now i just need to capture other things trapped inside haha whatever it may be
Monday, June 27, 2011
Sunday, June 26, 2011
-sincerely a burning icicle of a person
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Ok now onto the real post yes? I'd like to first ask a question to myself or whoever it is that reads this silliness, (is that really how it's spelled?) that's not the question. The real question is what is more important the question or the answer? From this I'd like to expand and ask another question what is more important the journey to the answer or just the answer? and finally the last of this ridiculousness is an answer even valid to you without understanding?
So I don't know what you answer or what your opinions are but I'm going to pretend they are exactly the same as mine for the sake of the continuation of this post. However feel free to ponder all this on your own or use my thoughts that are about to follow to maybe help guide you, just cause it helps sometimes ya know? So I believe answers are very insignificant in life. Questions are all that truly matter, now I know you're like um you're an idiot but slow down turbo let me explain geez patience ;) (yes sometimes i talk to myself pretending to talk to you) As I said answers are nothing because all they are is more questions incognito. I believe the journey the process is more important than what the end result is, I'm one of those people that starts on something and once the answer is insight i'm done because i've learned what i can and the answer teaches me little it just gives me the beginning of my next journey through questioning.
So this is what I ponder is there an end? are all things infinite? Are our minds ever truly content with anything? Once you ask a question does there even really need to be an answer? or do you just move onto the question that question lead you to? can you be happy with an end when you really think about it? I don't mean stupid things like 2+2=4 obviously there is a defined answer and if you're taking it farther you're stoned and think you're being smart but you aren't so stop it and stop lighting up while you're at stopping goofy habits. Anyways something like a question that there is a defined answer but is that really where it stops. However most of these lead to theological debates and I'd like to just say all theology is good and has truth to the theist. I believe all theology provides questions for one to ponder and helps guide them to answers they seek, I don't know that I believe you ever get solid definite answers because there seems to always be a question that follows. I do believe when it comes to religion there is one true one, however all religion and theology is good and can bring you truth. But i don't think it gives you definite answers as i said before, i truly believe it is here to help us explore and question things, I know I'm being repetitive bare with me this is my process of understanding my own mind which is a challenge even for me so feel free to stop reading at anytime haha i'm just trying to gather my thoughts by writing them. So i believe you can't come to a defined answer so that brings the question is asking a question enough? I don't think it is i think you must ask and seek to find as you seek to find it brings light to the question but it leads to more that will expand your thoughts and allow more questions, you may find the answer but does that even matter? you've discovered more things bigger things the answer in the long run of things is small and insignificant because you are onto bigger and better things so to speak, i think i'm just going to end this sorry it makes no sense probably haha i hope if anything it let you question things and ponder and meditate it helped me but i also knew what i was talking about hte whole time anyways this has been an adventure for me at least
good luck to all that have made it this far sorry to have confused you if i did and sorry for wasting your time haha
-sincerely someone who thinks to much without getting anywhere
oh hey realization i'm never going to be satisfied with an answer of any kind am i? because i love the journey of the question more awww hey this did work ha i figured it out for myself woot!
-sincerely someone who thinks to much but for once got somewhere with it
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
To said friend cause I think you read this stuff, I would love to still be friends but we do seem on off again ya know?
Next how did my parents manage to pull this crazy thing we call life and home together? It was my moms Birthday today and it made me think about like how old I am and what they were doing when they were this age. It makes me so grateful that a couple of 17-18 year old kids could stick together and make things work years down the road at the age of 36 still be together be successful and have 4 children, I just think about how I am now and just can't imagine having a kid and that kind of responsibility yet.
Also just how on earth can one smile lead to so much? I don't know if anyone else has had that experience but one smile truly can change so much.
Anyways onto more shallow subjects like for example PF changs shrimp and candied walnuts..... AWWWWWWW it was to die for! believe me that was one of the best meals of my life! It's so sweet and delicious, there is such harmony in the shrimp taste with the sweet sauce and sweet taste of the candied walnuts. PF changs hands down one of my favorites. Also I don't know what it is but when the sky is really blue and the clouds are pink I absolutely love that it happened today and I just stared forever I wish I would have had my camera. Oh forgot about this but I got a fortune at pf changs I like alot hehe I have some ideas what it might be but guess we just have to see huh? It says "Be prepared to receive something special within the week." whatever it is I'm excited who doesn't love special things right?
anyways Life is strange but it's that awkward kind of strange I just want to be around.
Thanks for reading my loyal readers or the lack there of
-Sincerely One who prefers the strange to the norm
Monday, June 20, 2011
oh and these are in no particular order just whatever came into my mind
1. Get death threats for dating a celeb (not one i count on but if the chance comes i will take it)
2. participate in a riot
3. Drive a really fast car on a track
4. sky dive/basejump/glider suit
5. be a stunt man
6. ride the fastest roller coaster in the world
7. Get a promotional something to try out for free and use it for a different purpose
8. Say a line in a movie
9. stage dive i've been crowd surfing so that's just the next step up right?
10. complete a weird food challenge like eat a 12 pound burger you know something nasty but you can say you've done it
11. When I have white hair be santa claus for halloween (only time i'll ever grow a big beard)
12. give a monkey a high five
13. this ones silly but i want to give agent P from phenius and ferb a hug so someone buy a perry the platypus suit and make my day?
14. be a paparazzi for a day
15. travel the world
16. work for national geographic (probably another one that won't happen but one can dream)
17. live somewhere crazy for two years (yes that was a subtle plea to go somewhere crazy for my mission)
18. be on a box of cereal or cover of a magizine or just something like that
19. break a world record
20. this is more of a daily one that applies always but make someones day :)
21. Be one of the costume people at disneyland (come on wouldn't that be the most magical thing ever when a little kid ran up to you with their little book and huge smile?)
22. be in a plane when it breaks the sound barrier
23. skip across water like a rock (I am prepared for the pain.... or i'll keep telling myself i am)
24. try to run on water (I haven't done this cause honestly i'm kind of embarrassed to but since i've told well whoever is reading this i guess i should jsut go for it now)
25. Be on a tv show
26. be on a jury or at least called in to jury duty i don't really care if i'm actually on the jury
27. be on an infomertial and say how great it is while i shake my head no.
28. punch a shark
29. i'll never ever ever do this so i guess it doesn't count but be in a high speed car chase haha it just sounds kind of exciting but i won't do it don't worry
30. see someone beat someone up and then I'll go knock them out
31. Slap ceos of oil companies right in the face!
32. Learn how they do egg/sperm/cell counts (i assume they take a small area and then just multiply but you never know for sure until you learn)
33. Learn parkour
34. Learn how to dive like a pro
35. learn and memorize lots of oragami (i have a few things down already)
36. collect a ton of cool but useless talents (i just didn't want to list the many things i want to be able to do)
37. write a popular blog (as you can see i'm failing at that)
38. write a book
39. have a book written about me
40. end this list
Hey i can cross that last one off! haha well of you are reading this you made it through that entire list and i congratulate you! if you skipped it and just came down here you fail start over or stop reading this post. Anyways thank you for reading if you know how i can finish any of these please tell me love all you loyal readers and also love the lack thereof which ever category you fall into I love you........ at least a little.
-Sincerely The top thumbed up comment on Smooth
Sunday, June 19, 2011
-Your Friend Braden Messick
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
(done with that pics will follow sometime when it's not 3 in the morning and i'm not feeling lazy)
So name change if you noticed, if you're even reading my narrations and interpretations..... um ok that is the new name i like it more done haha two changes in one night success? I think yes! anyways good morning my 2 followers (i just learned you could see who follows you..... don't judge) and loyal readers that remain nameless or the lack of faithful followers and or nameless readers.
-Your insomniac buddy
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
-A humbled a grateful older brother
Monday, May 30, 2011
1. Things always get better :)
2. Somethings lost are better off lost, others are better found like your favorite pair of flip flops that is better found. (sidenote thank you to Braxton for finding them even if he hid them in the first place)
3. You can fell so close to someone even if they aren't necessarily close
4. An immaculately clean house is so relaxing but hard to maintain.
5. Disneyland is so close.
6. Gillette you've ripped me off for the last time I'm growing a mountain man beard instead of ripping my face off with your fusion pro-glide that wears out ridiculously fast.
7. You can miss someone that you're texting constantly
8. Your mother can tell you that you are never to wear those cloths again regardless of how old you are (apparently I looked gay today...)
9. oh hey this is a new one, only your mother can say you look like a homo and then ask you if you've kissed a certain girl yet.
10. I actually don't have another one i just needed my list to end on a number with a zero
All of these were brought about by my days activities of cleaning my house to a tweakers clean, thinking of a two people one that can stay lost and one that I hope to see more of. Oh plus my "gay cloths" and i guess I should call it "shaving" although a drunken upside down Edward scissor hands (The original Edward) could have done the same thing. Anyways thank you for letting me compose a strange list with random commentary and to any Gillette CEO's or Twilight Fans reading this publication I truthfully mean everything that was said. Love you two but not really. To the rest of my loyal readers or the lack there of I do love you and hope you enjoyed this post and can relate in someway
-A straight man in gay clothing
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
-your rambling rambler of the west
Sunday, May 22, 2011
It hit me today how close the school year is to being over, dang this year went fast and honestly I'm glad to be done with it probably my worst year of high school. But anyways back to my point we only have 2 real days of school this week! Then it's off to California for disneyland woot woot! I believe the count down is down to 12 days. It'll be by far the most magical disney trip ever I think since my baby bro is 3 it's just the perfect time to go, He's going to love it!
So my aunt Mindy showed me this new strategy game that is so addicting and probably one of the best every, it's called like blockus or something like that i highly recommend this game but be warned it gets heated. Anyways goodnight faithful readers or the lack there of.
- Sincerely the unsincere
p.s. to the existing or non-existing persons or creature reading these narrations they will get better it's just late or early... not sure which is more correct in this case but yeah just take it as a note they will be better eventually, maybe, someday.