ska

Ska, if you don't know what it is i feel bad for you. You should also probably do something about it. What i love about ska is that unlike most genres it's super honest. It straight up just says life is hard things suck most things are out to get you and not many people are here to help you out in anyway. But then it's just like but it doesn't really matter because you can still be happy, the brass section pumps and you just know that yeah everything sucks but you can still go out and have a great time. No matter what is going on in your life there is a ska song that relates to it and can just help you through it. anyway random short post heres a song!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ndNjrD90a0

silliness

so i've been in a silly mood today especially this last little bit. i've just been hyper but there isn't anyone around to be hyper with so i'm just kinda internally hyper. It's a huge contrast to how i was feeling in my last post but it's a welcome change. i've been going through some old photos and found one i love i'm not even sure why it just makes me laugh when i see it so i decided to edit it and just make it a little bit better :) I took this when i was out playing with my little bro and he just kept flashing the world and i just think this photo is so like me if that makes sense. Like it's just weird and silly and that's just how i feel most of the time. I really like the composition of this photo as well just interesting. Anyway sorry i don't really have anything worth reading about but enjoy look at an outie bellybutton laugh and smile

Mental something or other

So the past few days have been really rough. I honestly don't even know what's wrong which is making it worse cause it's frustrating me that i don't even know why i'm feeling down. I one idea but i don't feel like this one aspect could get me feeling so low. but this is my idea i've started working full time at my job and i'm opening the store and during those hours i'm completely alone for 6-7 hours depending on the day. I really don't like being alone almost ever like i just enjoy being around people so being alone for that long everyday of the week is super hard but i don't feel like this is enough to have me so bleh. and everything else in life is going so well so i don't understand why i feel down, it just doesn't really make a lot of sense. But it's really effecting me like eating is a chore. Today all i've been able to eat was a sandwich from jimmy johns and by eat i mean i forced myself to finish it because i know i needed the calories. It took me 40 minutes to finish it and i hadn't had anything else before that. Tomorrow i plan on fasting and just being really focused in all my religious meetings because i know that if i'm open to the spirit i'll receive help. As well i'll just have to keep reading my scriptures and praying. Maybe i just need a day out in nature taking pictures and wandering just to help clear my mind. Thats another big thing is that i can't stay focused my mind is mess and just everything is zipping around and jumbled. Like look at your plate of spaghetti noodles and that's how my thoughts feel, probably why i can't pin point what is getting to me. Just writing this post is hard cause i can't seem to think much past the word i'm typing at the moment. anyway sorry to whine just trying to get my thoughts clear in my head

this is the best way to describe it just kinda bleh inside

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

I almost forgot it's my bestest best friend's birthday today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAREN!
I LOVE YOU

woohoo

Well i've been promoted to manager at coldstone which is great i feel really accomplished and just good about myself. it feels a bit weird and kinda scary but i'm excited :) i was sustained in my ward as well as a few others yesterday so my papers will finally be in pretty soon i'm super excited for that. Everything seems to be pretty great :) however i feel funny lately like just not as happy as i feel like i should. idk just all this great stuff i feel like i should be ecstatic but i'm kinda just eh even sorta down lately i don't know maybe just realizing like how real everything is becoming anyway that's the news for tonight

Goblin Valley

So on monday i went to goblin valley with some co-workers. at first i was kinda like welllll it's something to do but its goblin valley so really how fun can it be? i've never really loved goblin valley since honestly there isn't a ton to do there. So on the way down i tried to convince the guy that organized it that we should go to arches instead. I almost pulled it off but in the end we went to goblin valley. So i decided what the heck might as well enjoy the adventure. We started out by looking for this cave to do silhouette pictures and well long story short we didn't find it instead we ended up on the top of a plateau which had an incredible view! plus it was an epic hike up. so this first picture is a panoramic with mr. watabe in it and that is the view we had plus the other two it was just amazing.

next we had to get down which me and andy had a fun time with because we are comfortable climbers but the girls had a hard time in fact i thought they might kill us. so when we finally got down we decided to head back to the car for lunch. but then we found a deep cave so of course we had to explore. We crawled it and could see light coming from somewhere but there was a dark stretch so we turned on my iphone light and pushed forward and found a huge empty hollow with a hole in the ceiling which the light was coming from. we called this our club house and started talking and carving our names into the secret walls. we stayed here for probably an hour glad to be out of the heat then carried on back to the car for lunch. after lunch it was back out to explore and we finally found the cave for silhouettes :D sadly my camera died so no pictures of that but it was fun. 

Next we decided to look for more caves or cool canyons. however it was sooo hot so we found a shady canyon and then we all fell asleep for about an hour. once we all woke up fresh it was time to continue and we found an excellent huge canyon with many forks to explore! the girls waited back while me and andy climbed up to see if it was as good as it looked. as we entered we noticed two pairs of shoes.... strange but continued then we saw the four feet they belonged to, on top of each other... rocking gently back and forth.... yeah we just walked in on people having what appeared to be outdoor sex or hardcore make out session. so we turned around and came out with funny looks on our faces when the girls saw us they asked what on earth happened and we told them and for the rest of the day that was our joke. we hiked around for another hour then started our trip back home. 

this is were things got bad we had not been driving with fuel economy in mind... by that i mean we were driving 90-100 in a mini van and we soon had our "hey idiots you're out of gas" light come on. suddenly we realized how far it was to Price still. so we prayed that we'd make it the last 30 miles of up hill on our fumes. at fifteen miles we could tell it would be close as the gas light started beeping at us. we got into town and the car died... luckily we could coast right into the gas station. I took this as a sign from God saying I helped you out this time but don't be so retarded in the future. we decided to just get dinner at the subway by the gas station and it was surprisingly good despite the ladies making it being angry old betty's. 

Anyway i had a great time and decided goblin valley is awesome when you go with older people and can explore more extreme places in it :) next time i'll go with just guys so we can really get into it. but the girls we were with did amazing despite andy and I not picking the easiest stuff to do. 

rant

probably just ignore this, just really kinda ranting to myself to get it out.

So basically my bishop is the most ridiculous man on the planet! yesterday he told me everything was great and we would be interviewing/ordaining me to an elder soon. I texted him today to find out if i needed to be doing anything to speed the process along and he sent me a text saying well he has some concerns as well as the stake president. This confused me if he had concerns why didn't he bring them up when i was with him? secondly we have a brand new stake president how could he have concerns he has no idea who i am? so i asked my bishop what concerns they had to which i got no reply so i decided to send another text this time telling him how i have actually felt through the whole process which is just aattacked and judged every step of the way. to which he replied brayden (notice he can't even spell my name right after 4 years..... yeah i feel like you care about me) its not concerns about your mission don't worry i'm excited for that we just want some things set in place. So i replied well then perhaps concerns is an inaccurate word and should not have been used. and you didn't answer my question but what does he want set in place? again he ignored the question and said we just needed to meet. now completely frustrated i told my mom about it and she called him, he told her the concerns were about my attendance. (not sure why he couldn't tell me that.) But this is the most ridiculous excuse because i'm basically a single father in that i get myself and my three siblings ready and to church yes i am late alot but getting three kids up and ready alone is hard and from 16-18 most guys wouldn't go period but i at least try. the concerns were that i was late this week, missed last week i was at a farewell and i told him that, and the week before i was puking my guts out which i also told him so i can't see why i'm in trouble. we brought this up and basically proved how flawed his logic is. the next text i received was i (bishop) have permission to interview you for elder, (well no duh there shouldn't have been a question in the first place you just hate my family and dislike me because you are one of the most over zealous and judgmental men i've ever met in my life) so he said i'm only free wednesday at 8... well ok fine i'll call off work cause it's that important to me, even though i need the money for my mission whatever. then he tells me i also need to go to the meeting with my mother on thursday at 8...... ok fine 11 hours of work thrown out the window to jump through your ridiculous and unnecessary hoops. then he informs me he wants to see me on sunday as well!!! i told him i would be gone this sunday in Brigham city for another farewell, but i told him "ok i will skip out on this very important farewell that i already told you i would be gone for just to come to this meeting" to which he said great is 7 ok? WTF?! you're really going to make me miss that? so now i'm not spending time with my family which i hardly ever get to do because i'm never home and my parents are rarely home as well. so i just replied to him "peachy" still no apology when you can clearly tell how irritated i am but whatever.

anyway if you made it to this point you need something happy probably so how about some kittens or something?

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precious!!! :D