current um currentness?

So I've been in like the best mood ever for like a week now! It's freaking fantastic. I think I've finally figured out how to keep myself happy, I need to keep the big picture in mind not just what i may want in the moment. Also I've found riding the 3rd wave helps so much just cause it's so happy and fun and i probably let music run my life too much but it really helps to keep me happy (3rd wave refers to the 3rd wave movement of ska, this started in the 80's and 90's mostly ska punk with fun beats and such. known to some as skunk but I feel mostly just posers call it that.) Anyways yeah I find listening to some happy tunes singing and skankin' (ska dance you dirty bird) about just keep me so happy. Oh with the singing thing one of my best friends totally made my week the other day, we went to get some pizza for lunch and I typically sing along to the radio in the car i don't really care who listens, but this day my buddy looked at me and proclaimed "Braden you should be in chorus or Acapella" puzzled i asked why and he told me "you're just a really great singer" Aw man made me feel so good. I'm so ready to be done with school but have the rest of the year but hey it'll be fun right? I just have to keep an optimistic few which I used to always have i don't know where it has gone in the last 6 months but yeah. Oh and my car will be fixed sooooon woot woot and i'll be 18 hmmm don't know how i feel about that part.... "Adulthood" starts in what is it now sad i don't even know when my birthday is and the date is no where to be found.... well soon the 11th. I need to register to Vote! how interesting me a small voice in the government. I could get used to this i can feel the small gain in power already mwahhahaha. Oh so random tangent that is only actually a tangent for me cause you guys aren't hearing the commercial right now but pretend you're following this. So McD's says odds of winning (just a free little something not one of the big huge prices) are 1 in 4 on their little monopoly game thingy. Well today me and my buddies got some McD's for Breakfast we had 16 of those pull tab things so if the odds are really 25% of the time we should have for sure won at least one free burger or something know what we got? 4 reading railroad tabs, 2 of the green pieces, 2  Illinois avenue and 1 of the other red pieces, 3 park places, 3 oriental avenues, and 1 other railroad piece. soo yeah what the hell is that about? odds of getting RR 1 in four, odds of getting any free sandwich apparently 1 in 4 for most but not even 1 in 16 for me.... yeah oh well i'm done with that now. Anyways i'm off to enjoy my friday night have a wonderful weekend my dear sweet chickadees
-Your Loving chickadude

I'm alive

So it's been forever and a day since I've posted something mostly just because of school, you know how that is. This post isn't going to be very long either just not in a writing kinda mood but i want to get back in the habit. Major happenings since I last posted hmmmm my car got wrecked (not my fault and all parties are fine) I can tape an injured ankle, transfer calls at Timpview, and got some new in my opinion very sexy jeans and thats all I can really think of. I'll leave you with a picture and let you fond meaning in it, sorry it's an iPhone captured image so not the best but deal with it.Just kidding I can't upload them from my phone... Well thanks for reading my loyal bloggites
-you're loving master (haha yes I signed off that way)

a trip through recent thoughts

I've decided 17 years of age makes you an idiot. Don't worry I'm about to expound, just have to gather my thoughts in a way as to not offend people. just I have so many friends that are just being well idiots sorry i gave up on not offending people if you are then this blog is not for you click the next button now. Just how is it that a few months ago they all made sense they were in essence themselves. but now for several of them it's complete 180's like how can you knowingly make a choice you yourself know is bad and retarded for you to do and then still make it?! Don't get me wrong I've done it too but i've been talked out of alot more than i've actually acted upon. maybe i'm just too analytical and think things through to logically but i feel like they aren't thinking at all like they don't think ahead and it's just can you not see where you're going cause i'ts not that hard to see. I guess with most of them i'm not that frustrated but with like two or three it's the same idiotic choice over and over again! like they've been in the same situation and they know what happens when they make said stupid choice yet do it again! they do the same thing and expect different results which is infact insanity! but they don't seem to be driven insane by it only i am, maybe they're already insane and i'm just going down the path from sanity to insanity and that's why it bothers me so much? anyways i'm done ranting if any of you guys read this i love you all i just am confused but most of you know that already.

now happier news? I think yes. So for those that don't know much about me I am so indecisive and especially with one area of life and that's what i want to do with my life, Daily i find something new i want to do for a career i hate that in life you can really only do one career in depth. but here is probably my top ten career choices probably listed from most ridiculous to more realistic but we'll see it might just be random,

1. Rally car driver (yeah so what if i'm american it could happen)
2. stunt man/stunt driver
3. actor/celebrity goofball
4.president but the weirdest president we've ever had, world peace would be reached
5.bum (don't worry i'll explain more in depth after the list)
6. musician (i will also explain)
7. gay jobs such as interior design, stylist (ditto to previous parentheses)
8. professor/high school teacher
9.  psychologist/therapist
10. doctor/ surgeon (9, 10 are what i seriously plan on but the others sound more fun but yeah those are tied i'm not sure which i'd rather be)
11. photographer ( sorry couldn't cut it down to ten)

Ok so explanations so being a bum while it's more of a lifestyle not a career is at least to me rather glamorous, think about it you go wherever you want whenever the only time you have to stop is to bum some money or just go to home depot and pick up some odd jobs for people that way it's more predictable income and well legal. but yeah it'd be so fun to just travel no responsibility just doing what you want and not having a bunch of "things" to carry around and be attached to. musician well one i love music and two a musician is really a fancy word for bum who travels the world cause well they don't actually do much but they get paid may not be well always but still. ok gay jobs lets put it this way i'm you're gay straight friend, the guy that will go shopping with you tell you what looks good and is stylish and such but will still date you and kiss you, i just enjoy interior design cause well i'm picky about how things especially houses look, now stylist this is actually new, today in fact. but while getting my hair cut i realized how much fun it would be well not to do guys hair that would be boring.... but to do girls hair would be sooo fun, something you should know i love playing with hair so being paid for it would be fun, but more so like making a woman feel gorgeous about herself would just feel so good and doing that everyday? yeah awesome right? just seeing how excited this woman in there got with the person cutting her hair i got all excited and that'd be so fun to take part in but yeah anyways gay moment check! (to maren who i'm sure is going to read this sometime sorry i forgot to tell you about the stylist thing i kinda forgot about it until i started writing this but yeah i'm sure you'll appreciate this haha)

anyways thank you for reading my friends or the lack there of
-sincerely a straight gay man

Somethings suck

So basically sometimes in life you never expect things to happen but they do, good or bad. Sometimes its unclear which something is, it's often the hardest when a situation is like that. Sometimes holdin on to what you want is the worst thing you can do. I think I have been doing that lately when maybe I should just back off and leave it alone, thats what most people seem to think anyways they always have. I am trying it finally but it's hard and i don't know if it's right but I guess we'll see. I am sorry I never wanted this to be how things are but it seems to e what everyone wants.

Excavation of my mouth and the littlest things

So today I got my wisdom teeth out the doctor wanted sone pearly whites and well he struck pay gums. The place was called utah surgical arts so i'd like to believe that my teeth are now a part of some abstract modern art sculpture making a statement about sooety no one understands. Or maybe just part of the eiffel tower or the leaning tower of pisa thatll do doc thatll do It was pretty great loved the going under feels so relaxing, tue surgery itself went well. Well I assume it went well cause I have four lovely holes in this mouth of mine. But in all reality I suppose I dont know that it went well. Anyways I woke up and was good to go but they made me ride in a wheelchair which bugged me cause I hate riding in one when I can walk just fine. I can feel my face again which is great took some loratab and I'm feeling great but it's not really that, that made me feel so good it's just well the little things....

It's amazing to me te healing power a friend can have, just coming to visit you bringing with them a smile that melts your heart, just resting her head on your shoulder, holding your hand with her tiny little hands thT are just te best. I felt so much better after that visit nothing big happened but the greatest things are truly just te little things holding hands, a tight hug and getting a kiss on the cheek :) thank you for all the little things I'm on top of the world!


Thanks for listening my readers or the lack thereof have a great night love you all

Dads new job and today

So yesterday we found out that my dad dies indeed have the new job in north Dakota. We've spent the last few days getting him already for the job and time away from home. We had to switch his Phone to Verizon so I was lucky enough to inherate his old iPhone which is actually what I'm using to write this haha I kinda love it. But it is going to be hard not to see him for such long periods of time but it's such a great job too good to pass up. I know that god will be watching over him as well as us during the times he's gone.

Anyways today, so my fan went to see hp7 while I watched Braxton cause he doesn't sit through movies so well. We began our adventure at the university mall specifically the Disney store where we spent like an hOur haha it was so fun and so cute to see him get so excited about all the fun stuff. The next exciting event would have to be Tucanos. We went there for dads last meal of sorts, it was so delicious but I ate way tOo much I almost lost it in the barhroom. But man that is such a fun experience.

Anyways the rest if the day was pretty stressful just getting all the last minute stuff ready and I must say I am kind of scared but it's gonna be fun and exciting I do love change it's a good thing typically. Anyways thanks for letting me tell you about my day you're al awesome
Sincerely one rather impressed with his iPhone typing skills

one of those silly facebook notes

so i decided i should blog about something and i saw a facebook note thingy that seemed interesting so i'm going to do that and hey maybe you'll get to know me a bit better

LAYER ONE: On the Outside-- 

Full Name: Braden Matthew Messick
Birthday: Oct. 11
School: THS 
Major: Philosophy maybe, undecided 
Current Location: that's classified but i am behind a computer
Eye Color: brown green hazel?
Hair Color: brown
Righty or Lefty: lefty for life babies
Zodiac Sign: a cock for the chinese and then the one i think it means i am a libra at least that's what google says

LAYER TWO: On the Inside-- 

Your Heritage: german and other white places

Your Fears: elevators 

Weakness: babies

Goal(s): i've scored like 5 yeah i'm basically a super star

Regrets: only one but you have to be special to know it

Change one thing about your life: said regret 

Relieve Stress: drive walk music

Hardest thing ever dealt with: a long break up

What upsets you: slurping bleh sooooo nasty

Vent about something: I just gah i hate misquitos they take my blood and make me itchy and just grrrr gah it itches! i fed them is that not enough????! must they make me itch too?!!!


LAYER THREE: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow-- 

Your thoughts first waking up: midnight showing still so worth it hp7.2 baby

Your most missed memory: how things were like a month and a half ago, or perhaps the beach  

LAYER FOUR: You’re picking-- 

Pepsi or Coke: pepsi between those too

McDonald's or Burger King: mcds, bk makes me sick

Single or Group dates: some of both :)

Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate is that a question?

LAYER FIVE: Do You-- 

Do Drugs: nope not unless directed to take them by a medical pro

Have a crush: very much so but it might be unrealistic of me 

Think you've been in love: totally

Want to get married: very much so

Believe in yourself: what am i doing? but usually yes

LAYER SIX: In the Past Month-- 

Gone to the mall: yes i did yesterday in fact

Eaten Sushi: no it makes me sick

Gone skating: no not in a long time

Dyed your hair: never ever in my life should i?

Done something exciting: psh i do that everyday!

LAYER SEVEN: Have You Ever?-- 

Changed who you were to fit in: not really if i don't fit in i usually don't want to

Stole a note that you weren't tagged in: hahahahaha um prime example right here

LAYER EIGHT: Getting Old-- 

Age you're hoping to be married: if i'm not married by 30 i'll be sad i think 23 but we'll see what happens after the mission

Age you're hoping to have children: i'd like to at 25 but it's really up to my dear sweet wife she has to do the hard part

Want to travel to: EVERYWHERE 


LAYER NINE: Perfect Mate-- 

Best Eye Color: i love blue eyes but it doesn't really matter

Best Hair Color: Anything but i'd prefer not blonde

Short or Long Hair: depends on the girl :)

LAYER TEN: What were you doing-- 

5 MINUTES AGO: writing this i'm getting distracted 

1 HOUR AGO: reading someones blog

1 DAY AGO: HARRY POTTER 7!!!!!!!

1 YEAR AGO: something summery :)


LAYER ELEVEN: Finish the Sentence-- 

I Love: you :)
I Feel: like i should pause and go pee.....
I Hate: being chased by rapid dingos with buttons for eyes (it happens alot)
I Hide: Because of those d@mn dingos! 
I Miss: it would embarrass her if i said her name on my blog i think
I Need: a hug cause i want a hug


Well there you have it buddies :) hope you enjoy!

a blog post

So i don't really know what to write about i just feel like i should cause it's been awhile. So my cousin andy just got back from his mission and tomorrow is his homecoming thing i'm pretty excited but not at the same time it's just a very long drive.
The past three days have been pretty amazing but i don't know they've left me feelin kinda down for some reason. you ever just wish you could freeze time so you could think everything through before you had to choose something? I especially wish i could right now cause i know i have to choose something but i'm not even sure what it is, well i do i just don't know exactly what it is. Sorry that makes absolutely no sense unless you know me and how i describe things which is probably only like 2 people in the whole world. Gah i hate not knowing everything that's stressing me out but today it's alot of unknowns.
I did go on a run and it really helped me clear my head and think things through it was so helpful and helped mend some stupid stuff, i'm glad that parts behind and i'm looking forward to the new beginnings.
You ever get a text and pray that its from someone specific but it never seems to be the one you need to talk to when you need to? haha then you get some that break your heart that you didn't really expect them too. life should come with a map.... though i probably still wouldn't use it.
Well thanks for listening i know i'll blaze a path that makes sense looking back but sadly you have to blaze it looking forward and well i feel lost and confused in the denseness of life haha oh well you only get one might as well embrace the chaos and confusion and call it yours
-sincerely one going no where in particular

trapped inside

trapped inside, a photo by bradenm777 on Flickr.

So i've decided on a project to do, i want to take pictures of someones eye and then a picture of them expressing an emotion/doing something/ whatever they want to express themselves. then put them inside their eye. it's not the most original idea ever but i think it's pretty cool still. so if you would be ok with me doing that to you let me know :) comment on here or contact me by emailing me bradenm777@gmail.com even if you don't know me if you'd be ok with it i'd love to thank you my loyal readers/future models or the lack thereof
-sincerely "a sad strange little man"
p.s. not that i'm an angery person or a murder i just thought that might look cool in an eye and it allowed me to really use the name "trapped inside" for this project now i just need to capture other things trapped inside haha whatever it may be

only my eye

only my eye, a photo by bradenm777 on Flickr.

this is my favorite picture just because it looks cool and maybe it too says alot it probably does but idk anyways thanks for letting me babble my loyal readers or the lack thereof
-sincerely the eyes will tell

eye without color

eye without color, a photo by bradenm777 on Flickr.

I feel this caught my feelings exactly even better than the last one and yes i took the color completely out for a few reasons it looks cool and i felt it spoke well

my eye

my eye, a photo by bradenm777 on Flickr.

i feel this one caught alot of how i'm feeling maybe you can read it maybe you can't i also brought out the green in my eye just to make it prettier

EYES

You know that corny saying eyes are the gateway, window, doorway, etc. to the soul? well i for one have always believed it i love just looking at peoples eyes. They say so much about a person. Today has been kind of a tough day so i wanted to see what my eyes said so i took some pictures and then played with them a bit and if you don't mind i'd like to show you some of them oh apparently flickr posts them by themselves i'll write what i was going to on the photos themselves.....

my eye pure

my eye pure, a photo by bradenm777 on Flickr.

this is my eye unedited just normal how it looks

The weekend

This weekend was a pretty good one. I hungout with a friend on saturday at bridal veil which was way fun I have a few pictures from that posted on my flickr account that i strongly suggest you check out. Then today i've just been sitting around playing on flickr and exploring it's many adventures i skipped out on church on account of feeling sick. I am feeling better i'm just having ridiculous hot and cold flashes. I must say though lounging about in my plaid pjs and a shirt that's too small has been relaxing however i don't really have anything fun to write about haha so anyways thanks for reading my loyal readers or the lack there of.
-sincerely a burning icicle of a person

questions & answers

So I'd like to began with something completely off topic but I set up a flickr account finally and you know if you're bored or something or just want to be a pal or friendly stranger go ahead and check it out yeah? www.flickr.com/bradenmessick

Ok now onto the real post yes? I'd like to first ask a question to myself or whoever it is that reads this silliness, (is that really how it's spelled?) that's not the question. The real question is what is more important the question or the answer? From this I'd like to expand and ask another question what is more important the journey to the answer or just the answer? and finally the last of this ridiculousness is an answer even valid to you without understanding?

So I don't know what you answer or what your opinions are but I'm going to pretend they are exactly the same as mine for the sake of the continuation of this post. However feel free to ponder all this on your own or use my thoughts that are about to follow to maybe help guide you, just cause it helps sometimes ya know? So I believe answers are very insignificant in life. Questions are all that truly matter, now I know you're like um you're an idiot but slow down turbo let me explain geez patience ;) (yes sometimes i talk to myself pretending to talk to you) As I said answers are nothing because all they are is more questions incognito. I believe the journey the process is more important than what the end result is, I'm one of those  people that starts on something and once the answer is insight i'm done because i've learned what i can and the answer teaches me little it just gives me the beginning of my next journey through questioning.

So this is what I ponder is there an end? are all things infinite? Are our minds ever truly content with anything? Once you ask a question does there even really need to be an answer? or do you just move onto the question that question lead you to? can you be happy with an end when you really think about it? I don't mean stupid things like 2+2=4 obviously there is a defined answer and if you're taking it farther you're stoned and think you're being smart but you aren't so stop it and stop lighting up while you're at stopping goofy habits. Anyways something like a question that there is a defined answer but is that really where it stops. However most of these lead to theological debates and I'd like to just say all theology is good and has truth to the theist. I believe all theology provides questions for one to ponder and helps guide them to answers they seek, I don't know that I believe you ever get solid definite answers because there seems to always be a question that follows. I do believe when it comes to religion there is one true one, however all religion and theology is good and can bring you truth. But i don't think it gives you definite answers as i said before, i truly believe it is here to help us explore and question things, I know I'm being repetitive bare with me this is my process of understanding my own mind which is a challenge even for me so feel free to stop reading at anytime haha i'm just trying to gather my thoughts by writing them. So i believe you can't come to a defined answer  so that brings the question is asking a question enough? I don't think it is i think you must ask and seek to find as you seek to find it brings light to the question but it leads to more that will expand your thoughts and allow more questions, you may find the answer but does that even matter? you've discovered more things bigger things the answer in the long run of things is small and insignificant because you are onto bigger and better things so to speak, i think i'm just going to end this sorry it makes no sense probably haha i hope if anything it let you question things and ponder and meditate it helped me but i also knew what i was talking about hte whole time anyways this has been an adventure for me at least
good luck to all that have made it this far sorry to have confused you if i did and sorry for wasting your time haha
-sincerely someone who thinks to much without getting anywhere

oh hey realization i'm never going to be satisfied with an answer of any kind am i? because i love the journey of the question more awww hey this did work ha i figured it out for myself woot!

-sincerely someone who thinks to much but for once got somewhere with it

life is strange

So I find it strange, you may ask what? Well life and many things in it. One example, when eventful events happen in my life I don't feel like actually writing something that might be interesting..... yet when nothing is happening and it's just boring ol' life I'm like hey how about I write a blog or whatever you call postings. Another thing why can some people just pop in and out of your life? I saw an ex/ on off friend for a short time today and I'm like why do I not talk to you all the time still? It was so fun to just sing Ben Folds "army" together and then just talk but I know in a couple weeks we probably won't really talk that much again and it won't even cross my mind.
To said friend cause I think you read this stuff, I would love to still be friends but we do seem on off again ya know?
Next how did my parents manage to pull this crazy thing we call life and home together? It was my moms Birthday today and it made me think about like how old I am and what they were doing when they were this age. It makes me so grateful that a couple of 17-18 year old kids could stick together and make things work years down the road at the age of 36 still be together be successful and have 4 children, I just think about how I am now and just can't imagine having a kid and that kind of responsibility yet.
Also just how on earth can one smile lead to so much? I don't know if anyone else has had that experience but one smile truly can change so much.
Anyways onto more shallow subjects like for example PF changs shrimp and candied walnuts..... AWWWWWWW it was to die for! believe me that was one of the best meals of my life! It's so sweet and delicious, there is such harmony in the shrimp taste with the sweet sauce and sweet taste of the candied walnuts. PF changs hands down one of my favorites. Also I don't know what it is but when the sky is really blue and the clouds are pink I absolutely love that it happened today and I just stared forever I wish I would have had my camera. Oh forgot about this but I got a fortune at pf changs I like alot hehe I have some ideas what it might be but guess we just have to see huh? It says "Be prepared to receive something special within the week." whatever it is I'm excited who doesn't love special things right?
anyways Life is strange but it's that awkward kind of strange I just want to be around.
Thanks for reading my loyal readers or the lack there of
-Sincerely One who prefers the strange to the norm

Success!

So Today I got an email from youtube, it informed me some one had commented on something I said and as a result I decided to look at the video. I've always wanted to be one of the most thumbs upped comments on a video and today is that day BAM! check it out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f-y2LUh-9AA&feature=email&email=comment_reply_received yeah the comment was kind of edgy and unoriginal but hey it worked! Next on my youtube bucket list go viral.... hmmm maybe I should just sing a terrible song about a month? or a holiday? any suggestions? I think maybe i'll just write some silly bucket list stuff and ramble a bit anyways
oh and these are in no particular order just whatever came into my mind
1. Get death threats for dating a celeb (not one i count on but if the chance comes i will take it)
2. participate in a riot
3. Drive a really fast car on a track
4. sky dive/basejump/glider suit
5. be a stunt man
6. ride the fastest roller coaster in the world
7. Get a promotional something to try out for free and use it for a different purpose
8. Say a line in a movie
9. stage dive i've been crowd surfing so that's just the next step up right?
10. complete a weird food challenge like eat a 12 pound burger you know something nasty but you can say you've done it
11. When I have white hair be santa claus for halloween (only time i'll ever grow a big beard)
12. give a monkey a high five
13. this ones silly but i want to give agent P from phenius and ferb a hug so someone buy a perry the platypus suit and make my day?
14. be a paparazzi for a day
15. travel the world
16. work for national geographic (probably another one that won't happen but one can dream)
17. live somewhere crazy for two years (yes that was a subtle plea to go somewhere crazy for my mission)
18. be on a box of cereal or cover of a magizine or just something like that
19. break a world record
20. this is more of a daily one that applies always but make someones day :)
21. Be one of the costume people at disneyland (come on wouldn't that be the most magical thing ever when a little kid ran up to you with their little book and huge smile?)
22. be in a plane when it breaks the sound barrier
23. skip across water like a rock (I am prepared for the pain.... or i'll keep telling myself i am)
24. try to run on water (I haven't done this cause honestly i'm kind of embarrassed to but since i've told well whoever is reading this i guess i should jsut go for it now)
25. Be on a tv show
26. be on a jury or at least called in to jury duty i don't really care if i'm actually on the jury
27. be on an infomertial and say how great it is while i shake my head no.
28. punch a shark
29. i'll never ever ever do this so i guess it doesn't count but be in a high speed car chase haha it just sounds kind of exciting but i won't do it don't worry
30. see someone beat someone up and then I'll go knock them out
31. Slap ceos of oil companies right in the face!
32. Learn how they do egg/sperm/cell counts (i assume they take a small area and then just multiply but you never know for sure until you learn)
33. Learn parkour
34. Learn how to dive like a pro
35. learn and memorize lots of oragami (i have a few things down already)
36. collect a ton of cool but useless talents (i just didn't want to list the many things i want to be able to do)
37. write a popular blog (as you can see i'm failing at that)
38. write a book
39. have a book written about me
40. end this list
Hey i can cross that last one off! haha well of you are reading this you made it through that entire list and i congratulate you! if you skipped it and just came down here you fail start over or stop reading this post. Anyways thank you for reading if you know how i can finish any of these please tell me love all you loyal readers and also love the lack thereof which ever category you fall into I love you........ at least a little.
-Sincerely The top thumbed up comment on Smooth

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAREN!

Happy birthday beautiful Girl! :) I hope it's been a good one, and I hope all your wishes whatever they maybe come true. I just want to take a moment because I can and no one can say anything cause it's my blog to thank you for all you've done you've really helped me with so much, and all the adventures we've had. Just I want to say thank you for being one of my best friends ever not just now but our whole friendship you really have been amazing and here for me. You're an amazing soul with so many talents and you're so kind I'm so lucky to know you and I will never ever forget you, I love you Maren have an amazing Birthday!
-Your Friend Braden Messick

disneyland/name change

So I got back from california on saturday oh man that was a much needed vacation! I loved every second of it especially the beach mmmm it's a slice of heaven, from that taste of salt on your lips from the first wave of the day to the eventual rope burn you get on your hip from tying your draw string to tight. We went to newport and santa monica beach and newport is still my all time favorite it's just so perfect, although i did want to ride the rides on the pier at santa monica. Oh well I will someday. The best thing about santa monica beach (aka the original muscle beach) is all the crazy extreme balance people that was way fun to watch. But the waves of newport beat it all plus being buried in the sand was way cool i loved it. Its surprisingly relaxing and comfortable haha though having sand thrown in my eyes by my baby bro and cousin Owen wasnt too cool. Anyways on to Disneyland! As always disneyland was enjoyable but what made it so awesome this time was for sure Braxton and Owen, if you get the chance to go there with 2 and 3 year olds seize it and don't let go it is the most magical thing of all time! They were so cute with everything from pirates to dumbo to scooby doo mystery aka haunted mansion. The new rides at disney were great toystory mania so fun go on it the wait is worth it hopefully fast pass will be coming soon, arials adventure was cute, and the new star tours so good but not worth more than a 20 minute wait you should go fast pass route on that one. Oh and the new show world of colors? Go to it holy goodness of all goodness that was the coolest thing i've ever seen in my life! imaginers or however they spell it you have out done yourselves and you are not paid enough for what you do which is literally create magic and dreams!  The final thing on disneyland reconnecting with old friends or making new ones is great it's crazy who you see there. Plus this vacation put everything that was bugging me in my last post to rest everything got worked out and i am so happy :) God really does listen and cares. Oh ok last thing about the vacation the food was incredible! anyone in the anaheim area has to go to el torito grill and el torito something or other and get anything with the carnitas it is literally the best thing you will eat in your whole life. It is truly what i want my tongue to taste right before i die. I was brought to tears at the dinner table at how amazing they were even now... hold on i need a minute.......... mmmmm so good so very very good. Made by the hands of angels and savored by me every single bite.
(done with that pics will follow sometime when it's not 3 in the morning and i'm not feeling lazy)

So name change if you noticed, if you're even reading my narrations and interpretations..... um ok that is the new name i like it more done haha two changes in one night success? I think yes! anyways good morning my 2 followers (i just learned you could see who follows you..... don't judge) and loyal readers that remain nameless or the lack of faithful followers and or nameless readers.
-Your insomniac buddy

Teachings of a Three Year Old

    Today has been kind of a hard day, I've just felt like giving up on most everything I was just kind of sick of it all. Like most days I was watching my little 3 year old brother and playing outside with him. We raced some cars down this slope in our sidewalk and played Pirates with some little swords and a vocabulary of "arg" and "captain Jack Sparrow savy". This all made me feel a little bit better and I was taught my first lesson, When you're having a hard time just relax do something silly have fun. So I was feeling kind of better but was still lost in my sad depressed mood. 

          We then walked up to my grandparents to get my sunglasses I'd left there and on the way he fell and scraped his knee. When he had finished crying he said "Braden will you carry me? I don't want to walk anymore." So I scooped him up off the ground where he had fallen and was taught my second lesson, When you are hurt or just can't stand to go anymore ask for a hand and some help. Well we finally got back home and he wanted to ride his lightening McQueen tricycle because he can finally pedal it by himself. He said to me that he wanted to ride it all the way to the top of our neighborhood which is a pretty steep hill for such a lil guy. So we started up and He was doing great but his little legs started to get tired so i'd give him a little push to help him pedal. Just before the top he could hardly go anymore and I asked him if he just wanted to turn around and go back home. This is where he taught me the greatest of the lessons today, he replied to me 

           "No Braden, I just keep pedaling I almost there." Well we made it to the top of the neighborhood and he was exceedingly pleased with his accomplishment as I was with his knowledge and dedication. The Final lesson he taught me was while things are hard and you can hardly go on the end is in sight and all you have to do is "keep pedaling". I'm so grateful to the little guy he really is a blessing from God. He's a little ray of sunshine that just keeps going and stays happy. Thank you Braxton 

-A humbled a grateful older brother

some not so recent or original discoveries

So today I've come to the realizations of many things. None of which are new or something I haven't thought before but they are things worth repeating or just fun to say.
1. Things always get better :)
2. Somethings lost are better off lost, others are better found like your favorite pair of flip flops that is better found. (sidenote thank you to Braxton for finding them even if he hid them in the first place)
3. You can fell so close to someone even if they aren't necessarily close
4. An immaculately clean house is so relaxing but hard to maintain.
5. Disneyland is so close.
6. Gillette you've ripped me off for the last time I'm growing a mountain man beard instead of ripping my face off with your fusion pro-glide that wears out ridiculously fast.
7. You can miss someone that you're texting constantly
8. Your mother can tell you that you are never to wear those cloths again regardless of how old you are (apparently I looked gay today...)
9. oh hey this is a new one, only your mother can say you look like a homo and then ask you if you've kissed a certain girl yet.
10. I actually don't have another one i just needed my list to end on a number with a zero
All of these were brought about by my days activities of cleaning my house to a tweakers clean, thinking of a two people one that can stay lost and one that I hope to see more of. Oh plus my "gay cloths" and i guess I should call it "shaving" although a drunken upside down Edward scissor hands (The original Edward) could have done the same thing. Anyways thank you for letting me compose a strange list with random commentary and to any Gillette CEO's or Twilight Fans reading this publication I truthfully mean everything that was said. Love you two but not really. To the rest of my loyal readers or the lack there of I do love you and hope you enjoyed this post and can relate in someway
-A straight man in gay clothing

pictures of my baby bro his friend some toys, and the story of the jimmer lookalike that was jimmer

So this post is mostly pictures i took of my bro Braxton and his buddy plus some toys as i tried to be artsy. Anyways now my story. so thursday i went to lunch at magelbys fresh, while standing in line my dad said that guy behind us looks like Jimmer (the BYU player) I turned around and said "wow he really does look like him but he's much too short to be jimmer" my dad agreed and we dismissed the man as a very good look-a-like. Well when this fakes food was called the name they called just happened to be ferdette or however you spell Jimmers last name. With this new info we realized we had made a huge mistake and prayed he hadn't heard us haha i can only imagine what he thought if he did. To Jimmer if you ever read this blog i'm sorry for calling you short i just thought you were taller. Anyways enjoy the pictures and laughing at my idiocy my loyal readers or the lack thereof.

-a man with a camera and poor judge of height 

Last day of junior year

Today was the last day of school, wow finally it's about time. I'm so glad to finally finish this year its had way too many downs and too few ups. It was a pretty good last day though i have to say, got to say some good byes see people for the last time till next year probably. Also got some new shorts for disneyland that I think are pretty sweet. Speaking of disneyland i can't believe it's only like 9 days away wow time really flies! Oh I almost forgot I had the most awkward experience ever today, you're probably thinking no you didn't but let me tell you. As I was walking to my 7th and final period of this year I had that awkward run in with someone were you both step to the same side, well we both stepped to the same side while still moving forward so we both tip toed to you know not run into each other. Once we were about two inches away from each other we both grabbed each other shoved each other to the side and said "whoa!" For those that can't picture this too well or just want to hear it said yes i almost had my first kiss from a man today, which is an experience I never ever ever want to have yuck! I can only imagine how funny that scene must have looked to the bystanders in the Timpview commons and i hope it brought a laugh and smile into there day as it did mine. But hopefully it didn't bring as much fear and awkwardness as it did mine otherwise I might feel kinda bad. Well thank you for letting me tell you stupid stories goodnight and drive safe loyal readers or the lack there of.
-your rambling rambler of the west

Sunday

Today was pretty good, did some weeding in the backyard then went down to the lake, it's amazing how high it's getting already. Today was also my grandpas day of birth so i'd like to take a moment to say, Happy birthday papa! You're a great guy and an amazing example thank you for all you do for me!
It hit me today how close the school year is to being over, dang this year went fast and honestly I'm glad to be done with it probably my worst year of high school. But anyways back to my point we only have 2 real days of school this week! Then it's off to California for disneyland woot woot! I believe the count down is down to 12 days. It'll be by far the most magical disney trip ever I think since my baby bro is 3 it's just the perfect time to go, He's going to love it!

So my aunt Mindy showed me this new strategy game that is so addicting and probably one of the best every, it's called like blockus or something like that i highly recommend this game but be warned it gets heated. Anyways goodnight faithful readers or the lack there of.
- Sincerely the unsincere

1st entry

so it is currently 1am i figure it's an appropriate time to right my first blog post right? i'm not really sure why i am currently awake.... probably just my secret insomnia or maybe the highly caffeinated beverages i partook of at like 10. I have also discovered how much i love pandora oh my gosh how does it just play music i decide i love? Its just making me want more music that i can't have yet darn. Today or i suppose more accurately yesterday was a great day i spent the majority of it at uvu for a medical conference. anyways i can now check blogging and first blog post off my unwritten bucket list. Good morning and good day faithful readers or the lack there of.

p.s. to the existing or non-existing persons or creature reading these narrations they will get better it's just late or early... not sure which is more correct in this case but yeah just take it as a note they will be better eventually, maybe, someday.